Matter of When

It is not a matter of if it is a matter of when. I thought of that phrase right after I received some bad news last May. No matter how much we warn others that it will happen they do not believe us until it happens. Then life moves on and they forget. Then we wonder did they learn the lesson? How many times does it have happen for them to stop the behavior or the cycle? Tears flow from the constant heartache of others actions and the consequences. Four times since January I have been reminded of that phrase - It is not a matter of if it is a matter of when. The cycle does not stop despite desires from others for it to end. My heart aches as I feel alone in my trials. Some are trials I have created, some others have created, and others are part of mortality. There is one trial that I think my heart will not be able to handle much longer. I have learned to turn to the Lord more and more. I have learned to read and pray more throughout the day and have more and more with each passing year. I see Heavenly Father's hand and his power in my life. I know he is real. I know he is more powerful than Satan. I have seen the works of Satan and I have seen the power of the Lord. I have faith that if it his will he will take away this trial. I believe he lifts me up during this trial and he guides me. I do feel alone. I am loved by family and friends. I am the person in room full of people who love me but I feel alone. Sometimes I wish I had trials that more people understood. Even through the tears and heartache I do feel blessed. Heavenly Father is there. When will desire to change or break the cycle become strong enough? It is better to have strong faith than lots of knowledge and little faith. Faith will break the destructive cycle. I pray and hope that others will rely more on faith and find the peace they desire.

Surgery for my dad

On Friday my dad will have surgery to remove part of his esophagus and part of his stomach because of esophageal cancer. The surgery will be done at Barnes Jewish in St Louis. The surgery is very high risk. Please keep him and my family in your prayers. We are hoping for no complications and a speedy recovery.

Miracles of Faith

Miracles of Faith Thomas S. Monson July 2004 http://www.lds.org/ensign/2004/07/miracles-of-faith?lang=eng

Missoula Children's Theatre

Anna and Rebekah are in the Missoula Children's Theatre's presentation of The Secret Garden at MU's Jesse Hall on Saturday, May 5, 2012. They both have the same part which is The Secret Garden. They have two shows. The link is at http://www.concertseries.org/event/missoula-childrens-theatre-the-secret-garden/. They are super excited to be in it.

Anna's Baptism Invitation

We are happy to announce that Anna will be baptized on Saturday, February 25, 2012 at 2pm at 904 Old 63 South, Columbia, MO. She is very excited. All are welcome to attend.

Classic Wes

These pictures are from September 2010. They are classic Wes.

Back temporarily

Wes is back temporarily. They are done recording music for the album. He played guitar. Here is a link to their songs http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_songs/2175584 He will be home for a little while. He will return soon to Iowa so they can practice for a New Year's concert.

When he came home tonight he surprised the girls. He wanted to surprise me but I found out a hour and half before he got here because I called to tell him about a holiday concert the girls and I were going to go to. He told me he was on his way home so I decided to skip the holiday concert even though it was going to be at the beautiful MO Theater.